One day at a time
I recently spent about 180 RMB to buy a thick blanket for my bed. It has been getting cooler and cooler at night and I need to stay warm. Until just recently I just used a thin blanket that I bought during the summer. I don't like to buy too many things because I don't want to waste money. I mean, I have not made plans to return home, but when I do I dislike having to give away or sell at a discount, things that I have purchased here. I have given away and sold countless good quality things in moving from place to place simply because I couldn't take it with me on the plane or it was too expensive to send by mail. A blanket is a good example of something I will not be able to take with me if/when I decide to move back to the states.
Nowadays, I just live one day at a time. I teach a few days a week, do some proofreading work, build up my websites, go out for food, a bit of socializing, study a bit. I wouldn't call my life leisurely, because I am busy, but I don't have the pressure of a full time job commitment either.
I want to build up these websites and start a business, but I am discovering how big of a project and commitment it is. Its like a full time job in a way. But I really never want to go back to my old life of working for someone else. I feel like I want to fight that tooth and nail. I do think about retirement and saving for the future. I have got to find ways of earning money to put away funds for my future life and retirement, but not at the expense of miserable life in some company office. I am not sure I am fairly judging my previous work experience, but I know I don't want to go back if I can avoid it. I sometimes think I am not company material anymore. I mean, I don't want to dress in a suit, I have a goatee that I like, I prefer to wear comfortable blue jeans and a shirt. I discovered I have a hard time dealing with authority figures or managers. Mainly because I rarely believe they are actually doing a good job of managing, and I just don't really enjoy listening to people tell me what to do and how to do it. Living in China recently, I feel I am experiencing freedom I have rarely experienced before and it's so refreshing and amazing, I am afraid to leave it in some ways. I have got to find ways to maintain this financial freedom, yet be able to return home or live in other places. I am downright tired of seeing the trash and dirt and the poverty. I want to live in Hawaii or someplace really nice again, but not at the expense of my financial freedom. I don't want to have to work at some crappy nine to five everyday. There is no doubt that working at Bank of Hawaii was about the best job I could have gotten in Hawaii. It paid pretty well, and I think beat the heck out of having to work at a hotel. But 9 to 5 every day in some job I don't like and only enjoy myself on the weekends is not how I want to spend my life. Thus my hope is to really start a legitimate business that earns me enough so I can go wherever and whenever I want.
Nowadays, I just live one day at a time. I teach a few days a week, do some proofreading work, build up my websites, go out for food, a bit of socializing, study a bit. I wouldn't call my life leisurely, because I am busy, but I don't have the pressure of a full time job commitment either.
I want to build up these websites and start a business, but I am discovering how big of a project and commitment it is. Its like a full time job in a way. But I really never want to go back to my old life of working for someone else. I feel like I want to fight that tooth and nail. I do think about retirement and saving for the future. I have got to find ways of earning money to put away funds for my future life and retirement, but not at the expense of miserable life in some company office. I am not sure I am fairly judging my previous work experience, but I know I don't want to go back if I can avoid it. I sometimes think I am not company material anymore. I mean, I don't want to dress in a suit, I have a goatee that I like, I prefer to wear comfortable blue jeans and a shirt. I discovered I have a hard time dealing with authority figures or managers. Mainly because I rarely believe they are actually doing a good job of managing, and I just don't really enjoy listening to people tell me what to do and how to do it. Living in China recently, I feel I am experiencing freedom I have rarely experienced before and it's so refreshing and amazing, I am afraid to leave it in some ways. I have got to find ways to maintain this financial freedom, yet be able to return home or live in other places. I am downright tired of seeing the trash and dirt and the poverty. I want to live in Hawaii or someplace really nice again, but not at the expense of my financial freedom. I don't want to have to work at some crappy nine to five everyday. There is no doubt that working at Bank of Hawaii was about the best job I could have gotten in Hawaii. It paid pretty well, and I think beat the heck out of having to work at a hotel. But 9 to 5 every day in some job I don't like and only enjoy myself on the weekends is not how I want to spend my life. Thus my hope is to really start a legitimate business that earns me enough so I can go wherever and whenever I want.
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