You change so much so fast, its hard to keep up with this blog. Just a couple weeks ago I would sit you down to play with toys and you couldn’t hold yourself up. You’d fall forward or fall backward and I would have to prop you back up again and again. But nowadays I can sit you down and you can hold yourself upright! That is just amazing. You seem to figure out how to do stuff all on your own.

I put a little ball on a block and you reached for it. Several times you simply knocked it over, but finally you actually grabbed that little ball with your hand and held it! I was just amazed you figured it out so quickly. You were born just a few months ago and you can already hold yourself up and grab a little ball placed in front of you. Its just amazing to me.

I bought lots of block toys. I always thought it was fun to build things and stack things on top of each other. I figure you’ll might like that too. I often feel bad we can’t go outside as much as I would like. The weather was cold and wet during the winter and not really appropriate to for taking a newborn outside. Its gotten a little better after the Chinese New YEar, hopefully we can go to the park more soon.

Its fun when the sun comes out and we all go to the park. The first few times you would just fall asleep as we carried you. You would cry as we put your winter suit on you and you especially hated when we put your hat on your head. However, as soon as we stepped out, before we even got to the sidewalk, you went straight to sleep. Nowadays, you stay awake much longer and look around. I really appreciate that you are curious about the world and your environment. You look at things like cars and trees and other kids playing, really take them in. I suppose you are thinking about what those things are.

I try to smile and talk to you. Even though you may not understand specifically what I say, you seem to know you are being talked to and smile and your eyes brighten up. I think you may feel good that someone is trying to communicate directly with you. I’ll ask you questions about things like what are you looking at or what is that thing? 

You try to hold anything that we put in front of you. You are curious and that is good attribute that will serve you to learn and grow over a lifetime.

Sometimes I think about what kind of questions you will ask me in the future and how I can answer them. What is the meaning of life? What should I do if I am treated unfairly or badly or I feel sad. What to think about relationships or dating? What is really important in this world? I wont go into my thoughts on these answers just now, but I will share a little something my father told me when he got older. He said don’t get too happy or too upset about anything. What I think he meant was don’t let your emotions get out of control even when you’re happy or unhappy. Things may never be as good or bad as they seem at the time. In other words, you might say, stay cool and don’t fly off the handle.

I suppose you don’t need to hear those words now, you’re only a few months old, you are doing just fine as you are!

You were about 3.4 kilograms when you were born. Hard to believe you were that little. That’s like a couple of hand weights put together.  I have barbells that weigh several times more then you did. Your Mom could easily pick you up and carry you. At that time we could only cradle you in our arms. Your neck muscles were not developed yet and couldn’t hold up your own head. We’d have to support your head. Maybe a couple months or so later you started to hold your head up on your own. Your head would shake a little bit as you struggled to hold it up and would still need mommy and daddy’s support. But now that you are nearly five months old, you can hold your head up on your own and even turn it right or left to look at things you are interested in and look at where sounds are coming from. Nowadays, you don’t like to be cradled, you prefer to be held head up so you can see and look around.

We weigh you frequently to measure how much you’ve grown. We get so excited everytime you get a little bigger. In the first month you grew so fast, maybe nearly doubled in size. Once we started feeding you apples and bananas and carrots, you seemed to grow much faster. Going on 5 months now, you are closing in on 9 kilograms!

One thing I have realized is that there is not time enough in the day, let alone a lifetime to do all the things you want to do. You have to focus on the essential things. I spend most of my time either working, helping to take care of you, building my website “empire”, and core life stuff like eating and sleeping. Actually, sometimes eating and sleeping still take a backseat to other things. I remember the first few weeks after you were born, you had your own hours and didn’t care if it was morning, noon, or 3 am. If you wanted to eat, we had to wake up and take care of you. It was funny, because when you were first born you didn’t make much of a sound, but once you found your voice, wow, you could really yell! Then we would wake up and feed you, change your diapers, or what I called “Walking Around”. Walking Around just meant I would carry you until you felt better and ready to sleep again. I would sing songs that I knew, but I had to relearn some others. You liked “Mary had a Little Lamb”, “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star”, and your favorite at first was “Old MacDonald had a Farm”. You would laugh as I sang “Here a Moo, there a moo, everywhere a Moo Moo!”. I tried to sing you the ABC song as much as possible because I felt if that stayed in your head, it would help you in the long run.

I think it was about a month or so before you first smiled. You really started to have a personality. Even better, you soon started giggling. You want to know the best sound in the whole wide world? Its the sound of your son laughing! Yeah, when you laughed, it sounded so wonderful. Its interesting, because we couldn’t communicate with words, but we could play and sing and jump and clap our hands, and you would giggle. I had to record that sound because I always want to remember it.